01-15-11 I’M SO SORRY I CAN’T KEEP MY PROMISE.

It’s not that I gave up on it, it’s just that I’m fed up with that particular thing. And I just can’t go on denying it to myself. Ya know I shouldn’t lie to myself. It’s been really tough. Tried my best for the first 14 days of the year but I guess I’m just the type of person who can’t keep her new year’s resolution or some sort.

My reason for having a promise is so that I won’t be pathetic. The process of keeping it was making me feel pathetic. And now that I gave up, it officially made me pathetic. FML.